rindu~~~

today is the 16th day of fasting...next week da nk balik kmpung!!!yeay!!!tramat rindu pd kmpung halaman yg dah lama ditinggalkan...lame x lame sgt la..2 bulan lbih gtu....rindu pd family sume...rndu nk dgr bunyi budak2 yg memekakkan telinga dgn bunyi mercun dan bunga api after bukak pose...al maklumlah, da dpt energy balik after bbukak...hhehe...x dilupakan jugak pd 'someone' ni yang sememangnya akan membuatkn aku tsenyum walau mcm mane pon prasaan aku..x kire aku tgh panas hati or membara,die ni la satu2 nye yg akan bjaye mmbuatkan aku ktawa...x pe,nnti balik kalo ade jodoh psti akn btemu juga...=)

haish..ape la yg aku mrepek ni...skang ni aku nk mnyeru kpd kwn2 sume,dibulan pose ni,smentara masih ade beberapa hari lagi,jomlah kite muhasabah diri dulu...x lame lg nk raye...ikhlaskanlah hati dlm bpose..dan pd yg nk balik kmpung tu,aku ucapkan slamat pulang..jln bebaik..kalo mngantuk singgahlah di stesen petronas bdekatan anda...kuikuikui.. XD..ok lah...nk siap2 ni...nk gi bazar mncari mknan nk bbuke...slamat bbuke sume!!!

entry x de air....@.@

I can't believe this!!!I have actually woke up at 4.30 am just to take my bath..reason: got water already...reason: scared that the same thing might happen again during the daylight...seriously, I miss my home very much!!!not because I am homesick...I just miss my WATERY home....but,to look on the positive side, this might be m training if I ever get posted to pedalaman....well, this is a challenge for me..so, sabar su....x brape hari lg nk balik....SABAR...well, need to sahur...got to go...bye!!!!

p/s: frankly speaking,I have not yet prepared for such situation!!!

krisis dan konflik lagi...:'(

kali ni aku btekad utk mencoret serba sdikit prasaan aku disini....sbbnye aku baru je brdepan dgn satu lg konflik kat cni...x de air!!!!! aduh!!!! mcm mane kami nk mndi esok???someone needs to do smting!!!!biasela...da saat x de air,mata menantikan tilam,semangat pun hilang nk smbung esaimen....hnya ini yg dpt ko coretkan di saat ini...nite....

p/s:hopefully aku bngun utk sahur esok,air da ade..aku akn mndi saat itu jugak..haish!!

entry sahur....

today is the 4th day of fasting....i am very happy as i have completed my fasting for the last few days...it's sahur time...I have just had my sahur with dates and a mineral water...nothing much can be eaten as I am still full of yesterday's buke puase...now, a I have wrote in my fb status, setiap hari azam baru, i need to focus...today is my English Studies presentation...class is until 12.45 p.m,nothing much can be done in the room for many hours to go before breaking the fast....this year, I feel calm...I am at peace...I am thankful to The Almighty as He has given me a chance to reconstruct my life...last year's Ramadhan was totally a mistake for me...nothing much to be remembered actually...i am grateful that Allah has show me the right way to be walked on...this year, I want to make Ramadhan as meaningful as possible...no more fooling around...may I have the chance to 'redeem' my last year's mistake...well, siren da bunyi..it's sign that it is already subuh...need to move on with my next agenda of the day...happy fasting!! (^^)

energetic smacam je...

today is the 2nd day of fasting...i don't know why but it seems like I feel really energetic today..it's not that I'm not fasting ok...it's just that a happy feeling that you will have the moment you get the boost from someone..i don't want to mention that someone here...but for sure, that fella has given me a light to move on..thanks a lot...i don't feel any negative feeling today...it seems like it has just flown away...my confidence level arise, I am really happy that I am actually typing now approximately on 12.30 am!!! haish....how a miracle can happen..thanx to that particular person...i love you!!!=)

p/s: elaun x kluar lg...tp hati x de la susah sgt mcm sem 2 dulu...insyaallah,bhemah dlm bblanje,hati pon snang...ok la...gtg....tomorrow kelas...

coffee bean??? carrot???egg???

today's tutorial session had opened my eye about a whole new perspective about life...am i going to be like the carrot, or still want to move on with my life just like the egg, or perhaps I want to be a whole new me just like the coffee bean???who am i?? basically, this entry is not about me facing a personality disorder..in fact, it is all about what life can be...how can it be so challenging that sometimes it makes you feel that you are nothing more than a loser...well, this coming Ramadhan gives me a lot of flashback that I don't want to remember...to add to the bitterness(direct translation dari bm "mnambahkan lg kepahitan"), this is the 2nd year of me celebrating the fasting month away from my family...believe me or not, with a lot of unwanted memories, it gives me more courage to move on as the egg...it's not that I don't want to be the coffee bean..but, I cannot be the lonely coffee bean...i need the coffee maker and I believe that the time will come for me to meet my coffee maker...honestly, I'm having a kind of feeling that my coffee maker is not far away...he is somewhere near me...I can feel it...but, as for now, I want to clear things up that I should let the egg boils before I can have my coffee...until that time, Mr coffee maker, you will have to wait...(^_^)

p/s: is the coffee maker going to be my special one???let time decides...SELAMAT BPUASA!!!