x tentu hala...

mcm yg aku tulis kat title entry kali ni...aku sgt x tntu hala kali ni...uwaaa!!! pagi2 da hilangkan loket huruf K yg adik aku bagi...syg giler kat loket tu..memg aku ni cuai la!!! aduh...da la pulak smenjak dua ni,aku x tau le...korg tau x?? x kan???huhuhu...aku x tau ape yg tgh bmain dlm fikiran ni...hati sayu smacam tgok sekeliling....sgt sayu bile tgok org skeliling..tringat kat family kat umah...sgt sayu..pressure is building up...hish...kluar jalan2, da...aduh...mungkin ade urusan dgn Yang Maha Esa yg aku hutang ni..ni la agaknye hasil..hati x tnteram...atau mungkin ade sekelumit dendam lagi dlm hati kecil ni yg mnmbahkan kehitaman hati ni?? apa yg tjadi aku masih mncari2 jawapan...pkara lama yg kerap kali bmain di fikiran,susah utk mulakan kmbali hidup mcm sblum pkara tu tjadi..kdgkala letih dgn kehipokritan manusia...kehipokritan diri sendiri juga..blagak as if nothing had happened..sdgkan,rase mcm nk bwk diri ke air terjun Nigeria n trjun dari sana..mujur ade lagi sdikt iman,walaupun x shebat org lain,itulah yg mmbawa diri ni kuat...itulah yg mmbntu diri ni memekakkan telinga tanpa mencetuskan apa2 pertelingkahan mulut...HIPOKRIT...dulu aku slalu tanye mak aku ape mksud ni??? adakah skeping KUIH yg sgt sdap???adakah sjenis masakan tradisional???ataupun sjenis jenama antarabangsa???well,as aku mningkat dewasa,pkara ni smakin jelas...even aku sndri seorang yang hipokrit...bnde ni lbih kurang jnama antarabangsa la....hahahaha!!! n bnde ni jugak sjenis jenama antarabangsa yang smua manusia tidak kira miskin atau kaya mmpu miliki..tepuk dada tanya iman...brape kilo hipokrit yg kite da bli??? bangga x kite da byk bli bnde branded antarabangsa ni?? hopefully aku bleh la bjimat ckit mnjelang final exam ni...x nak da blli jname atarabangsa tu..kalo blli pon x nak bkilo2...nk bli 50 sen je...sbg topup kalo2 diperlukan..."kak,ade jual hipokrit x??bungkuskan 50 sen plis..."

SELAMAT HARI JADI KAMAL~~

cewaaahhh...akhirnye smpi jugak entry aku yg ke 50..sbenanye dari pkul 8 td aku dok tenung blog ni..tgok dashboard, 49 posts...tgok tarikh ari ni 16 september 2011..x bape jam lagi akan masuk 17 september...so, aku decide nk tulis serba ckit  post ke 50 ni utk adik aku yg akan genap 16 tahun 17 september ni..esaimen x buat lagi ni...tp x pe...aku memg da lame tunggu ni...skang jam pkul 11.37 malam...23 minit lagi sebelum 17 september...actually ade dua peristiwa best 17 sptember ni...adik aku kamal 16 tahun, lappy aku genap setahun dengan aku..yuhoo!!!

sbenanya entry ni aku memg nk dedicate utk adik lelaki aku...walaupun die terjal,aku syg oooo....name pon adik beradik...air dicincang x kan putus jugak kan..cewahhh!!!kelas ko sue...siap bpntun2 lagi...walaupon org sekeliling kat umah tu kate adik aku tu kutu rayau,perosak pemandangan ke,pape ke,aku tetap syg adik aku ooo....gaduh mane pun die adik aku jugak...ish...sebaknye..huhuhu ='( sue,control macho....hehehe...die ni memg jenis x dgr ckp..kdg2 x leh harap lgsung pon...tp aku ulang skali lagi..aku syg die ooo...ingt time die clash ngan awek first die,die kool,....tp aku tau die sedih...aku ngan mak aku tbace diari die kot..tapi die x tau...(mal,kalo ko bace ni jgn marah eh....) die memg patah hati sgt2 ngan minah tu..tu la..aku da kate,jgn main2 ngan api cinta ni...akak ko ni pon single lagi tau..(bajetnye aku...=) ) tapi da naluri remaja untuk mencuba..aku x leh halang..asalkan ingt jage batas2 pgaulan sudah..jgn smpi wat bnde2 yg mnyalahi agama...bak kate mak, biar x de harta,jgn x de agama...

jam menunjukkan pkul 1145 malam...kali ni aku nk cite la ckit time kami kat umah ni...dulu b4 aku masuk mktab dan berhjrah ke kelantan ni,memg mcm anjing ngan kucing la...mak kat umah tu pon nk naik gile mnghadap kami adik beradik..satu lg, mase aku kecik2 dulu,mak aku kate,aku penah tutup muka adik aku ni dgn bntal mase die masih baby...nasib baik mak aku cpt smpi..hahaha...tu time kecik2 la..agaknye aku sje je nk test main cakcak ngan baby tu kot...bile kami smakin bsr,adekala baik,adekala gaduh mcm WWF...memg kami ni pasangan ideal la kalo sape2 nk carik gaduh..sume bakat tu da ade dari azali lagi kot..hahaha...

naik darjah 3 kalo aku x silap,mak aku tempahkan baju raye kaler hijau bunga2 utk kami sepasang...kami memg sedondon la time tu..time tu dua2 tsenyum..(aku x ingat le kalo ko ingt ke x kamal oi?) pastu pkai bju tu utk gi bazar ramadhan tahun berikutnye...ade tdengar abang2 jalan blakang kami ckp..."sepasang tu..comel je" bukn nk koya..just bgtau je..hahaha...then smakin kami meningkat dewasa,mkin byk kami bgaduh,then baik,then bgaduh,then baik....tu je la keje kami..smpi skang mcm tu kot...

tp skang ni da lain ckit..walaupun gaduh still ade,tp gaduh mulut je la...fizikal x de lagi..kalo kecik2 dulu,katil mak la jd gelanggang WWF kami smpi mak kne sebat sorg2 ngan hanger..skang ni,ok da la ckit...mungkin ni la hikmah allah campak aku jejauh ke kelantan ni..at least hubungan kami ni dpt pulih ckit...skang ni,kalo aku balik,aku ckp je nk mkn ape,adik aku gi bli korg tau x....bukan pkai duit mak bapak..tp duit die sndri...hebat x???duit topup2 die keje,tu la yg die wat blnje aku time aku balik kalo aku mngidam..hahaha...haish..sayu la plak cite lame2 psl family kat cni...da la rindu kat mak ni..waaaa....

so, dgn mase yg bbaki 6 mnit x tmasuk mase kcederaan ni, aku nk conclude essay aku kat atas td tu...conclusionnye,SELAMAT HARI JADI KAMAL!!!! WALAUPUN AGAK KOYE N POYO,BACELAH YE...AKU SYG KO...MOGA2 DI HARIJADI NI,KO LBIH ADE AZAM BARU NK BRUBAH..JADILAH ANAK YG BOLEH MAK N AYAH BANGGAKAN WALAUPUN KO X DE KELULUSAN SEKOLAH TINGGI2..ADIOS BABE...=)

NI DIE MASE LAST YEAR RAYA...TU DUA KAWAN DIE..TIM NGAN HERRY..

YG NI NGAN ADIK SDARE AKU...ANAK MAKCIK AKU...AIN DIAH...SUME AKU SYG OOO...

a little bit lega

yesterday was really a relieve for me...finally after days of preparation, we had successfully completed the task with a good compliment from the lecturers... the exhausted phase is over!!! now is time to focus on a little bit more of assignments b4 entering the exam hall by the end of this semester...last night, i got myself a new broadband and a pair of my kasut kelas....my spend last nite IS RM 130... waaaaaaaa....takut tgok kan...it's my way to spend lebih dari RM 100 in a single night...but, thinking back on the positive side of it, the shoes can be long lasting if beli kat kedai elok ckit..aku bli kat VERNS tu wei....disebabkn slame ni x reti nk kuar shoping mcm org lain,ase mcm bangga dpt kasut baru...harga??x yah tau la..teka sndri...ldev oral presentation pun da selesai tadi...fuhhhhh..lega beb..i know i have a lot to improve on my spoken english...debar ckp kat dpn tu wei..hahahaa...mcm mane la nk amek MUET nnti ni???ni blakang tgh sakit bdenyut...da brape hari gini...lg mcm nk mnitik air mata kalo lpas duduk lame tu...die punye sakit,perrrghhhhh...tuhan je yg tahu...mak kate, sbb letih sgt...mak suruh gosok ubat...tp sape lah yg nk gosokkan??saat2 gini ammat merindukan mak kat umah tu..insyaallah next month balik la...hehehe....pasni ade gotong royong aras...sepuluh minit lg...mase utk mnjadi seorg manusia dan wrganegara yg bjase...hehehe..k ar...selamat sume ye...

p/s: sakit tu ujian Allah....tahan su....

on the run...

alhamdulillah...some of the assignments have been completed yesterday..all I have to do now is to arrange it properly according to the specific arrangement and submit it on monday...then, here comes my next mission...sorry to say, I'll be busy working on my coming exhibition this monday...well,basically we are going to  exhibit about the international conflict about London and Libya...

talking about London makes me remember about someone who can help in my materials...anak mak cik ros le...she is working in England...last week during raya, I had the chance to talk with her about her life in England...well,she is not living exactly in the city of London but the riot has caused all the people including her to stay in the house..she even got scared to go out...a few days before she went back to Malaysia, she went for a shopping but it was not a good time to shopping that she finally managed to get only some chocolates and sweets to be taken back to Malaysia as souvenirs...guess what??? I GOT IT TOO...hehehe...x dpt gi england,dpt souvenirs pon jadilah....well, it is always my dream to be in London since I was in my secondary school...I tried my best in every exam...but, maybe my destiny is here in Malaysia in Kelantan...don't worry, I have always been dreaming that one day, I will further my studies in UK.. maybe in a few coming years when I want to do my Master...

getting back here,baru lpas solat...lapar ni...hajat nk mkn piza la mlm ni....member yg nk gi bli plak x dpt kuar coz hujan..anyway,life is fleksibel...boil an egg dlm heater,smash them,mix wif mayonese, spread onto bread...jadilah sandwich segera aku....k la..nk mkn...tata....doa kan aku bjye mngharungi weekend kat cni ye...salam~~~

hari raye...

seyes....sunyi giler hidup rase bile da kmbali smula ke IPG ni...nk nangis pun ade....haish..smalam duduk enak2 dgn adik kat dlm kereta..hari ni da kmbali ke sini utk memulakan smula pjuangan yg thnti slama seminggu sudah...sedih memg sedih...tp hati kena kntal bro...bukn sje sje je dtg Kelantan ni...dtg bwk harapan mak bapak beb...haish...kenang2 kmbali,takut pon ade nk balik mktab ni...ni pon mnulis kejap je..nk hilangkan sakit kpale kat otak ni sblum smbung buat esaimen....memg aku rehat tahap gaban la hari raye ni...sory to say la...bukn aku smbil lewa dlm blajar..tp,balik 2 buln skali je...itupon cuti seminggu je..mane ckup nk qada` sume yg ttinggal slame 2 bulan tu...hahaha..aku ni ckp lagak org dok oversea...hahahhaa...chill su..byk lg cabaran mndtg ni....yg pnting,hati kne kuat,lutut x bleh goyang....sapa2 brani masuk,wa kasi sengat!!hahahaa...alhmdulillah,stelah sekian lame,dpt jugak aku mngarut2 srba sdikit kat cni...pape pon,aku chow dulu..esaimen mnnti...tata sume..=)